My father's family seems to set their mind with "BEAUTY IS EVERYTHING"
They always care about looks :P,my aunt always says "Segak,Fiza" to me.I never actually taking serious of her compliments........to me I always put myself at the lowest point.I've been thinking that she probably said that to cheer me up.I know myself.......I don't have good looks compared to my cousins all the "Sharifahs and Sheikhs".Only me and my brother do not have the status in front of our names because my dad doesn't want to.It's ok dad,my name is long enough to make the teachers go mad to fill my name in school forms.
-sigh- (nama panjang pun salah ke?) My Grandparents were from Saudi Arabia,my mom's family were chinese+arabian.
My dad? Well his dad is from Gujerat near Kashmir more like Pakistan...where pashminas are made! :P and his mom is Siamese. Minah Campur la kiranya...
When I was born my parents were worried about me being tan...and my nose *no nose XD.
I wasn't perfect like they imagine I would be..fair and cute with a sharp nose.
I disappoint them,when I was 10 my parents said that I'm ugly so I guess I was okay with that,and at that moment I thought.."why should I dress nicely?I won't be any prettier".That's the reason I chose to be a tomboy for a while but until now I still got a little piece of the boyish identity.
~Sometimes I feel like I'm a boy who got stuck in a girl's body~but that is ridiculous! Allah made me as a girl so I have to accept that,but mom told me that before I was born...the doctor who's incharge for the ultrasound told me that I was a boy but he was wrong.I'm a girl instead.
Firzanah=Hanazrif
Sounds like Zack Zahriff.
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