Bon Jovi's song was haunting me...."Oooooouh,Half way there,Oh Oh living on a prayer take my hand and we'll make it I swear...."
Well since 12.30 pm until 7.15....my eyes were filled with water and dark circles start appear on my eyes...how ugly....until my brother try to stop me from crying...Hohoho that's the first time when he try to coax me...everyone in the house was worried...that's the first time they ever seen me crying until I refuse to eat and has been living in the dark.......
My dad never saw me crying so badly....I rarely show my feelings to everyone and then....yesterday was the saddest day in my life.Dad knows how hard I study to go for the interview....he even took me to look for books at Popular,my dad read my Ding Ding Ding post....he cried for me..hurm....the first time he read my post and probably be the last mwehehe....<----I'm okay now...
My mom told me that I can be whoever and whatever I want....she even told me...that even though the interviewers gave me good marks during the interview,I still missing few other things and that is my A's.They are still counting the A's.....like I thought earlier.My friend asked me to wait for the 2nd intake but I refused.I don't wait things pal,time doesn't wait.After several pulled of tissues....my eyes finally stop flowing with water,I was afraid that I might go blind if I didn't stop flooding my house.
"Bukan mama tak nak bagi Jaja masuk private college tapi sekarang mama kena buat loan,PTPTN takkan bagi full loan kat kita,kalau mama banyak duit mama boleh hantar pergi Overseas tu study.Lagipun mama rasa Jaja ni belum ready lagi nak pergi further studies.
Mama rasa Jaja boleh score Form 6,Jaja bukannya tak pandai cuma malas je.Form 6 dah silibus baru,sesuai dengan jiwa Jaja,silibus baru tu memang kena byk imagination dan creativity.Uitm,they just didn't know how good you are"
"Ish...entah-entah diorang tu tersilap,nak potong nama orang lain terpotong nama Jaja,mana tahu...la kan kot-kot jadi macam tu,tak mustahil benda tu boleh berlaku" Dad,he tried to wait for the call that might change the situation...hurm...well I don't know! I am very disappointed with myself....I never get what I want....I almost get what I want...ALMOST.
"Buat la rayuan,InsyaAllah dapat tu...." said my mom's boss....I won't go if I've got for the second intake.Where should I put my face? I've got pride NOT price so it's your loss for not choosing me and purposely cancelling my name.I'm entering Form 6 and that's final! I'm looking forward to apply the Astro Scholarship,and they need at least 3 A's for STPM and at least 3.5 CGPA with high marks for extra-curricular activities,Applicants must possess pre-university results for overseas university applications .They can sponsor the people who is going for further studies abroad such as USA,India,Australia,United Kingdom and so much more~
New Zealand or New York? Hmm I always wanted to go to New York,New York University.It sounds so cute when it's pronounce as NYU~
In New York....
These streets will make you feel brand new,
These lights will inspire you,
Hohohohohohoho! Half way there....Half way there.
I feel young when I went to school this morning,wearing my old school uniform...and my mom is the Penolong Kanan for Form 6.I have to behave then XD.No more skipping classes,I'm in a new school with my mom...ouuuh scary but I will get up from this fall.So New York wait for me!!!
Thanks to everyone...you guys really lighten up my heart...thanks so much...even a million thanks couldn't be enough.Huhuhu :')
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