Have you guys ever wonder why I use "Liselle Moncherie" instead of my real name?
Well Do you? It's okay if my name never crossed your minds but now I am typing the history of my real name and that is FIRZANAH.
I used to hate my name when almost everyone called me "Pizzahut" and "Piranha" when I was 7....I hate school and I hate almost everyone in school.They didn't know to differentiate between P and F,huhu pity them...they didn't "graduate" from the kindergarten.Even on my certificates,they wrote "Farzanah" instead of "Firzanah".When I was 8,I went to a Quran Reciting class and there was a very nice Ustaz who likes to ask me about my name,and he likes to call me again and again...although I pass my turn to recite the Quran until he told me "Firzanah,Ustaz suka sangat nama kamu ni tiap-tiap kali Ustaz nak sebut,kalau la Ustaz ada anak perempuan Ustaz nak letak nama Firzanah jugak".Hmmm he's the only one who likes my name besides my parents at that moment but at the primary school?Only Allah knows.
Sometimes,when I came back from school.....I throw away my school bag furiously and ask my parents why Firzanah? Why? There are lots of other names that you can give me but why Firzanah?
"Nama tu special,maksudnya Yang Cerdik.Jaja kan pandai,nama tu kan sedap mama dengan bapa bagi nama Islam tu ada dalam buku Nama-Nama Islam tu,cuba Jaja tengok".I search for the book and found names with the letter F,the named FIRZANAH was underlined with a pencil.My parents chose the name,and I carried them with a pride.....even my characters are slightly different from the kids with my age...and that's why I've been teased a lot.
Do you know how annoyed I was when an Ustazah just asked me "Apa ke pelik betul nama kamu ni,bukan selalunya Farzanah ,ni Firzanah apa maksudnya entah?"<---In a very sarcastic way.I get that a lot from other people too,hey the patience meter just reached the maximum level.She always called me Suzannah.If someone calls you with a wrong name everyday,would you be mad?
"Ustazah,mak pak saya bagi nama saya Firzanah ada maksud tau,Yang CERDIK.Bukan saja-saja suka-suka nak bagi."a quick answer came out from my "Big" mouth.She was surprised to see how angry I was when I answered.The whole class was in shocked,the first time they saw me stood up and tell them my name wasn't a thing to play with.I got a name and so does everybody else and the only difference is that my name is quite unique and rare,mwehehehe.Since that day,no once dares to tease my name.All the boys received punches and kicks from me.Satisfied? Yes,I am.Bullies and teasers don't deserve to live,they are the losers who try to hide their weakness by mocking other people.How stupid....and how pathetic they are but then again history made who we are.
2004,I volunteered myself to help the Headmaster to translate an English book entitle "The Blue Boy" into Bahasa Melayu during school assemblies.That story...it' about a boy who is blue in Africa and everyone likes to tease him for being different and I...imagine myself as Him.So when I read the story I feel motivated by his courage.He ignored all the teases and names given and he finally success to be a Soccer player because he has a big talent playing Soccer.All the pain is a motivation for him to be a successful person.Everyday I have to get on the school stage and while the headmaster reads the story in English and I will translate them into Bahasa and guess what,the Headmaster gave me RM 1 everyday!Huhuhuhu well that's my luck.My name is no longer a joke,every teachers in school knows me and the boys.....I saw them began to feel ashamed of themselves.I don't get teased anymore and questioned about my name.
After years go by,I've been planning to change my name....it's not like I hate my own name but I don't like to remember the past....and how bad I felt when people teased my name.I want a new identity and I want people to forget the "old" Firzanah.....no more Pizza and Piranha.
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