Like I said...."I'm No Genius"
Till now,some of my friends and relatives can't accept my awful SPM result.

"Ish tak boleh terima result Jaja, dia tu budak bijak mak,Shira tahu la Syira kawan dia,ini mesti sebab dia pindah sekolah baru tu,kalau tak pindah mesti result dia bagus" my senior..Kak Shira told her mom about that....and then her mom told my mom XD

"Tak boleh percaya result dia" also my senior Kak Shifa

My cousins Kak Putih and Kak Jue were also.....thought the same.
Since I was a kid,people always have the first impression about me being a clever person.The fact is I'm not clever or smart...I'm ordinary!

It's hard to change people first impression towards me.Sometimes when other people see me they thought that I'm a university student.....even though I didn't get the offer to attend any interviews XD.Maybe my characters seem very convincing to others.I hate to lie,I only get private colleges offers~ Uitm? Nah~ Who wants a student that is DUNCE?If I own a white house,there would not be any problems to get into a private college =.='

"You really look like a very smart person you know,Like a university student" said Aunty Mahani.
Yea probably the looks~ I'm no genius though.

Me: I don't feel anything,I feel normal but why others don't believe me?
Kak Jue: Sebab orang ingat Jaja pandai.
Me: I'm No Genius
Kak Jue: Jaja,everyone is born smart,everyone is smart cuma dia kne pandai amik peluang

I became Blurred...

Kak Jue: Jaja tak payah tgok contoh jauh-jauh,tgok kak Jue ngan Kak Putih je,Kak Jue ada Dip. dlm IT Kak putih ade SPM je.Siapa yg jadi manusia skrg? Tgok Keadaan Kak Jue mcm mana? Mestilah Kak Putih yg jadi manusia sbb walaupun dia SPM tapi dia smart amik peluang sekarang Bank Executive.Kak Jue? Selalu berhenti kerja. Sebab Kak Jue tak pandai nak amik peluang mcm Kak Putih.Yang banyaknya dia nak experience,lagi satu Kak Jue nak pesan....always dengar nasihat mama jaja.

And then a flashback of a Uitm lecturer told me "We do not look based on papers,you really have to be outstanding for the interview".....yeah I know that...Am I outstanding? I don't think so.Did I have been called for any interviews?No!Hahaha now I guess now that you look based on papers.I feel like digging my own grave,a grave with no name.Firzanah means "The Wise" I guess....I don't deserve the name...



Looks like I have to get back to school,get 4 principals and then forget TESL.I will be taking Law,like my mom always wanted.Everything happens for a reason,I'm accepting things the way they are but some people....they just don't believe me....again I'm No Genius.Form 6 then!

Impossible Don't Exist,I still believe that somehow....I could be a drummer or even travel to Saudi Arabia riding camels.Who knows?


Thanks Sis Deno for this cute Doodle portrait of me!Hehehe Pink Is My New Obsession~

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Once upon a morning,I saw my dad watched a video of Maria Elena -Who doesn't know her-?!She's famous!
No,i'm not jell-us heee :P.The video showed Maria was having fun with other girls,playing games...having make overs and etc.

To tell you the truth,I'm very curious about that,there's still a question in my head.."Why is he watching the video while there are millions of other videos to watch.?"

My bed is my victim,never fail to catch me when I jumped on...<--bila nak patah untuk katil baru XD
I lay down and wondering....Why?Why?Why?...Thus! Flashes of the video replayed on my head over and over like a spoiled record,my eyes are the projectors,the ceiling is the screen...sounds of laughter and joy almost gave me an answer *Maybe he wants me to be like them*

And when you said,I'm not okay I was about to say "I'm only gettin' started"

Happy,cheerful,energetic and stylish.
Me? just being regular..sloppy..unhappy?

I am happy! I'm happy with my life!
I'm happy for being me,I'm happy because I feel great,
I'm happy with my achievements,
I'm happy because I have what I need,
I'm happy because Allah gave me a chance to live,
Yes dad! I'm happy.


I can't be someone else but me,everyone has their own way to live and so do I,dad.
A person who lives in a lie *not being himself*,will never walk out from his story unless he found his true identity.

Labels: Being true