I left my blog for 2 weeks O_O,Why? I become a personal assistant and also a secretary. Managing my boss's meetings and pack her stuff,iron her clothes,travelling with her. Full time job? Yeah! Huhuhu busy week! Well I work like a butler,for a female butler I might be call as a "butleress" not a maid,I can't even manage my own life hehe and then I become a personal assistant? Pretty weird,and my boss...she's my own mom so I guess it wouldn't be any problem hehehe!

Ok,I almost reach my 300th post but today,I'm going to unveil~ to reveal~ to expose~ another weird case of mine and that is being a Shy Kiciuś. Kiciuś means Cat in Polish,originated from Poland~ Kiss Kiss Kitty XD. Muahahaha! Okay. I got an extreme shyness which need to be reduced. There are many stupid things that might happen and the silly things I do when I got shy.
Shy Cat?


1. Run to my room and sink my face in my pillow and scream
2. Hide behind my friends if I walk with them
3.Roll on my bed hugging a pillow
4.Keep my face down when talking and walking
5.Standing by the door......*it could lasts for hours*
6.Put my face on the wall
7.Crying with shame
8.Hide in small places
9.Laugh on every sentences I've said *during talking*
10.Shaking *in occasions this always happen*

Terrible aren't they? Whenever I want to control my shyness when talking,something would stop me from talking too much...something would block me from expressing myself in front of other people.There's one incident that almost make me faint because of being too shy and blushed all over....gosh.....I don't want to remember about that anymore...*traumatic*.Luckily my friends understand me so they always calm me down...truth to be told...I get blushed even on Facebook... =.='

Being shy can make people respect you,but being too shy.....it's hard to survive.There are only few people who I can really cope with and when I start to live with them,they finally know how crazy I am hehehe. Most of my friends first impressions about me is being "ARROGANT". I admit,I won't smile or even talk to other people unless they start first.When they get to know me,I'm not the kind of person that they imagine I would be.There are a lot of things that I always wanted to do but the shyness always become a thick wall that stop me.

My semester break is almost over and I want to change to become a better person,a brand new me! A brand new Liselle Moncherie who don't get shy too much! I want to break free from this chain of shyness that locked me up from doing things that I wanted to do.During my debates, my lecturer told me that I had to reduce my shyness since I could talk but I just seemed "invisible" to others.I just don't know why I become this way....I could do a public speaking but when it comes to communicating with others....I failed! Maybe I'm scared of people....scared of people?? I'm not an alien to be scared of people...oh wait alien abduct people =.='....Mom told me I spend too much time being alone and that's why I become "allergic" to people.I think that's kinda true...kinda....I talk with cats....they always just say Meow to what I've said.What a great feedback! I need to stop though....the shyness meter just increased.




So if you guys have any tips or special remedy to help me curb this problem of mine,you could always leave comments :)

Win and Won,two words that carry the same meaning but different spelling according to time (past tense).Yes,I've Won! The essay competition for Diabetic Patient's Story held by Ampang Puteri Hospital,it was my luck I guess.Actually I don't have diabetes...it's just a favor of mine to help my cousin.She was warded by the time I had to sit for my finals,no one was there to take care of her after my other cousin had to go to work....so I decided to take a break for a while,my last paper was 9 days away so I got time to study for my last paper.After all she is my cousin and she always helps me whenever I got a problem and I should do something in return.

I took the KTM alone....from Nilai where the train stuck for almost half and hour...not to mention it was raining..and I had to carry my bags and also my Varsity Jacket,I finally dropped off at Bandar Tasik Selatan where I had to take the LRT,it's been years that I didn't take the LRT huhu...it was way different than I remembered...they have tokens now! I bought a token to Ampang and I was confused which platform where I have to wait....although they put the signs...which didn't help me much...as I expected...I was on the wrong train..they were going backwards instead of going forward! Ok this is my fault....well it doesn't hurt to go out for a little air right? :P

The train was so packed like a tin of sardines,the only difference is they look like humans! Okay I was heading to Chan Sow Lin *I don't know how to spell* then to Pudu...so I waited until the third stop and that is Pasar/Plaza/Bazaar Rakyat. How about my token? They would surely sound the alarm if I passed the "gate"..... the gate was far from the second platform but they have securities and guards....Luckily..I don't have to pass the gate.....so after I get down the escalator..I ran to other side quickly and there I was... I made it to the other side! Yeayy! without having notice~Phew!

The second train was not so full,there were only few people and many empty seats waited to be seated.As I'm trying to sit on the seat...suddenly the train moved with speed and I fell on the seat while my bags were rolling on the floor...okay that was embarrassing....I looked around I saw few people covering their giggles..hmm it was the train's fault! Nevermind,as long as I get on the correct train everything would be fine.

Ampang is the last station,I took a cab to Ampang Puteri and Voila~ I made it..travelling all by myself.It's the second time I've been doing this travelling thing alone after I ran away from my hostel...that I've told in my previous post Moncherie's Mischief . 5th floor Room 518,she texted me earlier. I walked into the room like a Prince with a shining armor from a long time ago,trying to save the two Princesses in a tower... and my two cousins were there watching tv,indeed they were surprised to see me coming with my face shining bright with oil and I was panting with exhaustion...huhu it was a long way though...:P I forgot to park my horse...ok cut the Prince part :P.


"Nasib baik Jaja ada, Kak Jue nak pergi kerja dah ni,boleh la Jaja jaga Kak Putih,bawak buku kan?" said my cousin Kak Jue.

"Yes!" I answered her with enthusiasm! When Kak Jue went to work,I took care of my Kak Putih,she is the fairest in our family and that's why her name is Putih..although her real name is Zahirul Balkhis.A doctor came in,she needed an essay about my cousin's history of having a diabetes...she told it was a competition for diabetic patients.The most interesting story wins!

My cousin couldn't write since her hands are wired...she is not a left-handed like me and she is way tired to think of anything... so I had to write for her, I interviewed her on how she got diabetes and start writing...and let the magic works~ :P. Well it's been 4 days I've been taking care of her..air-conditioned and I didn't even sweat...that made me feel like I'm floating.....but that won't stop me writing although I feel kinda dizzy,shaky and High* because I didn't have enough sleep...I can say it's like being drugged huhu...I finished the essay on 4.25 am.......few seconds after that I passed out on the table with a pen in my hand....


I finally opened my eyes when the sun almost burned my face..12.15 pm...I saw my cousin was watching tv..she can be discharged after 5.00 pm.Finally! Phew...

Waiting...after waiting for my result to pop out,my eyes finally gets tired so I decided to sleep. I don't have the guts to check my result actually...since my effort was only like 50% but I was thinking to get the DEAN,In your dreams Liselle! No Effort,No DEAN! At first I thought my result was totally a mess...I'm worried about my Computer Science because it's the hardest subject for all Mass Comm student.Alhamdullilah~For the 1st Semester

The way I study.....the summary by pictures....

I saw a glimpse of your jaw..... and then when opened my eyes you're gone.It was only a dream after all, I know it's my fault,leaving you without saying goodbye. Now it's been almost a year we keep ourselves away from each other,whether it's my fault? I guess so.This is not my Lemon,Lime,Apple or other fruits that I've told before.He is the only one that I didn't call with fruit names.This would be probably a letter that I should wrote a long time ago.



I'm the worst girlfriend ever,why?

I am envious and super jell-us
I don't like seeing you laughing and spend more time with your female friends.You sure got a lot of fans too...ok..that made me more jell-us.Although you always say "Oh,come on...You're still no 1 in my heart"....I find it's very hard to believe that.Plus,you're fans are very annoying.....they always there whenever I want to see you.I won't start texting you unless you start first...

Bad Temper
I always mad at you,even about the smallest thing......I just can't control my temper...you never say anything back...you just stared at me until I finish all my sentences...maybe I look cuter when I'm mad huh? XD mwehehe

An Expert on Sulking
I know...I sulk a lot...sometimes it can go for weeks and even a month! You never gave up coaxing me...and I feel so ashamed of myself for treating you this way...I never understand that you always busy managing your life after your dad left...I felt stupid..now.

Easily Give Up And Walk Away
When most things were almost torn apart,I walked out from your life without explaining why and I just ignore you when you run to me and say "I was happy when I'm with you"..plus I did punch you...ooops...and again sorry for that...I even forgot when is our anniversary....

~Not-so-Flash Flashback~
I still remember when the first time I met you,your face feature are different from other malay guys...you are truly handsome! Your jaws attract me so much and so does other girls....and then I knew that you're mixed with German.Not to forget about your nose! So sharp,and perfect...perhaps too perfect.

You noticed me and say HI to me,am I surprise? Of course I am! My heart was beating fast suddenly you introduced me to your girlfriend....okay that was frustrating.T_T,so yeah we just say HI whenever we bumped into each other until we chat for quite a long time and we shared the same interests and then we meet again...and again until 1 day you broke up with your girlfriend.

Sure...you have a lot of stalkers and as one of them I felt guilty,...everyone likes you because you are friendly unlike me...I'm quite shy to talk to other people...then you took a picture of us and make it as your default picture,again another surprise.You are way good looking than I do...and I didn't deserve to be in the same picture as you..but there..you confessed that you liked me from the beginning. You surprised me for the third time...life is full of surprises aren't they? Another surprise when there's another person confessed that he likes me,and he's a year younger...=.='.I know this guy first before I know you....I just couldn't say no....he was like a brother to me but I could see he is being sincere. He has a girlfriend too,he broke up because he wanted to be with me...haish..What's wrong with you people?

1 day....you told me that a girl said that she truly fell in love with you..but you said to her no because you have me..I was so touched by that...because I didn't do the same...I couldn't keep up having two boyfriends... finally the younger guy knew about me and you...when he found out our picture and I was wearing a Panda Hoodie..huhu! He was frustrated...I should just tell the truth from the beginning...my mistake.

When almost everyone know that you're "single",girls kept sending you messages and even say HI from far..all I could do is stare...and keep everything to myself.Jealous? Yeah!!! Until 1 point...I finally decided to leave....after I found out about a girl named NAT.

So that's it. There's no guy like you,I admit that there's a guy that I like but it wouldn't be the same. He is not tall like you....he is not as handsome as you,his jaws is far different from you,his nose is not sharp as yours but he has the magnet that attracts me so much.I hope you could find a better person.Not me of course.Since then,I've changed...I closed my heart and love is the biggest illusion....I'm just a kid for god sake. Study!

Ladies,the most attractive subject to all kinds of human beings,especially the vice versa of the species or more likely to be named as Man,Gentlemen,Macho Man and even half man.....who try to be ladies.Ladies~ They are just attractive!



Okay,I'm just an ordinary person who is currently 18 and going to be 19 soon and I got a question that always running in my head.....the question never gets tired of running for so long in my head...and I'm going to let it out...Why Do Ladies Get To Be Named and Labelled?

I mean like the Iron Lady,the Dragon Lady,Lioness,Tigress,Bossy,Old Hag and etc...
This always happens when a lady become the boss or just ordinary employer
Why? Is it when ladies become bosses they are bossier than being bossy?
Or the ladies are sometime fierce like lionesses and tigresses *phew extra ssss*
What is it about the Iron lady? Always holding the iron?


If some ladies are fierce,well the main reason is probably the feeling of insecure...so whenever we seemed to be fierce well..we are protecting ourselves...this is only based on my opinions.I need your comments!

Bossy and women...when I listen to the word bossy...the picture of"A lady with glasses wearing high heels" appears in my mind...is it true that only ladies are bossy??
This post is not mean to offend anyone...I'm just wondering why...

Well,good morning friends,trespassers,random blogwalkers and anyone who currently read this...if you're reading this later than morning well happy late morning :P.

Euw...,the siblings of the word Yuck! used by human beings to express their disgust on a certain topic,object,subject,predicate, matter and much more not to forget they even say Euw to each other.

Does this happens to you whenever your interest is being *Euwilized* !*this word does not exist,I made it up!*

Examples given :

# No 1
Miss Purpy says: I love purple!
Miss Yell-O says: Euw!!! You're a Belieber! Only Beliebers love purple. I love Yellow!
Miss Purpy says: Euww more! Wiz Khalifa loves yellow,Black and Yellow?Please~ Like Beez in The Trap :P

 -they end up fighting because of colours-

#No 2
Lime : I saw my Lemon,omg there he is!!!
Cherry: Who? Where??
Lime: There! He is the one that I crush ! Oh my~
Cherry: That Guy??! Euw! you got no taste at all,my Strawberry is much handsomer.
Lime:Your Strawberry? Who's face like all with spots and hair like a native??. Double Euww!





-they end up fighting because of stupid things-

Everyone has their own taste and their own interest that other people shouldn't Euw at! I got Euws a lot from other people and that annoys me,doesn't mean that my taste is different than yours,you can just say Euw to me! What if when things that you love most being labelled Euw by others,did you feel angry or sad? I bet you do!

When you Euw to other people,you get double Euww. Double the Euww,double the shame and double the temper! Hahaha :P.What goes around comes around~ Don't Euw to other people when their interest is not the same as yours,the best thing is by not saying anything at all. Before you say Euw to other people,you should think about it because the closest people to you are your friends and family,they represent you so...when you say Euw to them....actually you're saying Euw to yourself. Euw You!

*No colours or fruits were harmed during the scenario*
P/s: It's not fun anymore when I can't type the arrow like I used to..."<----- nbsp="nbsp" p="p">They'll end up with HTML error...heh reminds me of Computer Science...

To Kay_are, I introduce you to Nyancat!

The fish? What is it about? Anatomy of the fish? Nou~ "british accent"
Am I going to show my pet the fish? No! "regular accent"
How to cook fish? Nah...."American hipster accent"
My favourite fish dish? Nope "Another American hipster accent"*fish dish = hey it rhymes!*

So since I started college,the most common word that came out from my mouth is the F word.I used to hate the F word and even don't want to listen to the F word when I was still in school....I even yelled at my buddies when they were using the F word...but now I'm the one who uses it almost everyday. F this! F that ! What the F! Yes my name starts with Firzanah, F! Why? Because I always don't have much time to finish my assignments perfectly especially computer science's assignments...they always rush. The main reason why our computer science's lecturer likes to rush us is because she wants us to work under pressure.....wait,what does it have to do with assignments? Here's a demo Stress+peer pressure = F word

Plus,some of classmates were using the F word for such a long time...and even my housemates did the same...so they kinda influence me to use the F word too...I know it's not nice and it does bring a bad impression on ourselves when other people heard us saying the F word....then I got a complain saying that my friends and I were using the F word too often! I finally decided to stop using the F word. It actually works! I began to control myself by saying THE FISH!

Whenever I got mad: THE FISH!
Whenever I forgot something: THE FISH!
Whenever I can't find my matrix card: THE FISH!
Whenever I can't find my keys: THE FISH!
Whenever I'm late for class: THE FISH!

See,how important fishes are in my life..although I don't eat fish...except for fish chips...and keropok lekor...heh,I do eat fish but not like the real fish..fish.....ok nevermind! Even my friends know when I got angry..."Dia ada sebut THE FISH tak tadi?" it's my trademark!
Sorry fish...I don't want to use you to cuss but mentioning you is much better than mentioning the F word! If I were a fish...I would probably become a mermaid mwehehe! :P.

Ainurra Beatha Dan,I still remember her name on the list of my Facebook friend request, I'm attracted to her name,Ainurra Beatha Dan,her name is just beautiful and sweet and so my index finger quickly click ACCEPT! *this is before I deactivated my fb account* ohh please Liselle how many time that you have to tell you've deactivated your fb? Mwehehe unfortunately I just re-activated,why? I had to order something online...and I had to contact the supplier on fb... ...sheesh! There are lots other ways to contact people other than using fb....why must fb??

Sorry I just dragged my fb crisis here,okay back to Beatha Dan! At first I thought she is a mixed blood or something have to do with that,hehehe she attracts me so much...and so...I decided to ping her,not just any ping..I started pong her with Salam (it's ok if you don't understand about my ping and pong joke)  ping pong! She is nice,....she actually replied my pongs nicely although it's the middle of the night...I'm sorry my so-called insomnia is bothering me and influenced me to bother other people during night time! Don't sleep! mwehehehe :3

Since the university that she currently studying is around my college,so that makes me more excited to know her! Maybe one day we could meet each other,and so does other bloggers. I made an early plan for next year,I'm going to meet you guys! Yeah! Hehehe :3. Actually I saw the name of Ainnura Beatha Dan before,it was on blogger  and tada! She made a mini giveaway ,she asked me to join her giveaway and I feel so honoured because I've been asked to join by the sponsorwoman  herself!

This is not a part of a movie but a it was a real life event!


After spending hours staring at my laptop screen,reading and commenting entries of my fellow minions so I decided to take a break,heh I sounded like a working person :P.Since I deactivated my Facebook account,I kept focusing on my twitter.....sometimes when reading other people sarcasms and gossips make me feel annoyed...and twitter seems to be the place of sarcasm and gossips! Okay enough with twitter,I rolled over on my bed....suddenly my phone was ringing,it was a call from an unknown number....

Hesitated to answer the call,I finally touched the answer button...a female voice was heard,I guess it was okay...maybe an old friend of mine who tried to contact me but this call was different...

"Hello,boleh saya cakap dengan Firzanah?" in a serious tone,my heart was racing...who is this person?

"Yea,saya....siapa ni? I answered her slowly.....

"Saya nak tanya awak,awak kenal tak ******?" she continued the conversation asking me about the person that I just wrote about,the person that I loved...I couldn't answer her...I was shocked+afraid= *about to die* when she asked me that.All I could think of whether is something bad happened to him? Or is this his ex?..my tongue was tied to answer her question...my mouth was sealed...I couldn't speak.

"Awak ni....siapa?" I asked her slowly,but she wouldn't tell me who she is....

"Hey! Saya tanya awak ni awak kenal dia ke tak,hello???" She was still on the phone waiting for my answer...my hands were shaking,I feel like I'm drowning in ice water...my hands and feet turned cold...I left my phone on my make up table....I could still hear her unanswered Hellos...my heart beat was speeding up....I left my phone with silence,until she finally ended the call. Six miscalls towards after...If she is his ex or current girlfriend,she can have him. I wouldn't even know him if he won't start first...I'm sorry. I just don't know what to do,I switched off my phone after that.

Minutes later,I decided to call my best friend and told her everything,she was pretty curious and asked me how that girl has my phone number? And besides my best friend,would there be anybody else know about me and that guy?Perhaps my readers,mwehehe!

 I began to make assumptions,maybe she take a look at his phone,probably found our conversations and that she started calling me after she found out and bla bla bla. Okay I was paranoid,freaked out because I never deal with situation like this and it is stupid to fight just because of a guy! I mean there are millions of other guys in this world,fighting because of one guy? Please~ her voice seems to be very common,it's like the voice that I heard almost everyday.

Then...I remembered that the number was familiar,there's a girl who borrowed my phone to text someone and sent to the unknown number...that is it! I'm calling my house mate!

"Eh,D,kau ada call aku tak tadi?" I asked my house mate+my college bestie+roommate ehehe D is 3 in 1!

"Hahahaha! Ada ada! Aku la tue! Saje bergurau.Amboi sayang betul kau kat dia...sampai tak jawab aku tnya,takkan tak kenal suara aku. Kan aku pernah text kt no ni? D answered with laughter

"Jangan bergurau macam tu lagi,boleh mati aku sakit jantung! Gila! Mujur kau bukan ex dia ke girlfriend dia ke haish....takut tahu tak?" Okay....I took her joke seriously.

"Laaa,sorry aku tak sangka la kau takut sampai macam tu sekali,baru je nak gaduh hahaha! Kau ni cepat give up la,haha bukan nak berebut!" said D.

"Bukan cepat give up la.....tolerate namanya, berebut? Hehe takkan la nak berebut kalau orang tu dah berpunya =.='.Karang gaduh pasal lelaki boleh putus persahabatan tahu tak? Please jangan kenakan aku macam ni lagi"  that was my last statement.

"Putus persahabatan???? Jangan doe!!! Ok ok aku tak buat lagi,heeee.Bila kau nak jumpa dia? Tahun depan kan? Nak ikut!" D felt sorry after I told her that...I'm afraid..

D,I don't know whether I can face him in front of my eyes next year...I just want to see him from far.

Water droplets fallen from the thick clouds of October,and now it's November's turn to continue the monsoon season~ I only realized that,it's only been 11 days I left college! * I already felt that it's been 3 weeks!* After days I'm covering the sleeping syllabus that I missed during the Finals and also the study week,and not to forget the nights I've been staying up studying and finishing all the assignments! Woo! I got plenty of time to sleep.....but lately I'm getting bored with sleeping.

Coming back to the blogging world carved a smile on my serious face,but I really hate when I got tons of ideas of writing the posts like I used to.....my mood to write things and read seems to be vanished! How about my blogwalking routine? well..... I missed reading your blogs but something has been bothering me since I went home..... what happened? It begins with....hehe looks like a narrator in a movie telling stories mwehehehe :P  okay let's start over

It all begins when I actually misses someone who I thought that I would never and ever misses.The person who would not be named,the person who I never thought that I could knew...someone that I always look out for,someone that becomes a magnet that attracted my heart so much! Someone that...okay too many someones. Currently our communication breakdown worsen the situation and I guess I should take a break from contacting each other.I deactivated my Facebook,ignoring my phone...although my phone is always in silence,hey silence is golden! Heheh :P. If only the person knew how much I put up the pieces of my heart together just to fill in my empty heart for "Her/Him". I am a straight person,please choose the correct answer. LOL :P.

I kept myself busy,so that I can't think of "Her/Him" all the time,every night I put my phone next to my head so I could read our previous conversations...that would take hours for me to read then I end up making my pillow as a sponge and my blanket as a giant piece of tissue when water starts to fall from my eyes,just like the rain.If only the person knew,I always visit the place "She/He" likes to go and hangout.How I wish we could be like we used to....time passes and changed everything. October turned to a new page,November says hello....months have gone so fast,if I ever can see a glimpse of you from far....that would be enough to make me happy....I could feel that I'm not the girl that you're is missing.,that's why you go...I know.

Okay,that's all for today! The 1st of November,and my dear beloved minions,I hope that you're willing to read my Youngsters Power Essay,because it is an entry for the Perdana Essay Competition for a blogpost,and I need your comments for the final judging. Thank you for spending your time reading my entries.Huhu Lots of Love from Liselle :3. Happy November.