Roses are dried within days,
A broken heart takes forever to heal,
I was confused and dazed,
Hoping my wound would start to feel,
Feel the peel?
I'm switching the vacuum on! It sure is dusty here....oh my god! My Nyan Cat had just turned into a spider...spider cat-spider cat,can he swing? No he can't he's a cat...look out it's Spider Cat! He does made some shabby spider webs.Okay...so What happened to me?Where did I go? <----Lame questions from myself,hehehe XD
Well I actually went to school for 3 weeks....and I never had the time to blog since tiredness conquering me! I'm old...T_T....and actually I think that I've lost myself for the time being.
I can't write like I used to,
I can't think like I used to,
I don't feel like I used to,
Why I've changed so much lately? A single thing has ruined my first dream and it left me a deep scar.
I couldn't think rationally since 7th of April.I had to admit,I can't really get up from my sleep after my dad throw me dozens of pillows...leave me alone.I want to sleep forever<----I had no intention to be the Sleeping Beauty! Hohoho.....I always get disappointed easily,does disappointment similar to "Giving Up?"
No! It's not giving up....it's just...well ...how can I describe this..hurm.... it's like this heart broken that is caused by a "Great" sadness.So yeah,I'm just depressed not giving up or anything and since I didn't have much time to blog and read your blogs....I became less interested to write T^T .
I need your help,I'm dealing with the biggest dilemma in my life...It's not like I'm getting married and stuck between 2 guys...hey wait! I am dealing with two "Guys" here TESL and Mass Communications.I got both offers.Tesl,at first I was in love with you and I don't want to lose you but then....you don't love me as much as I do...I give you all I have but you tossed it in the trash,YES YOU DID!<--- I won't catch a grenade for ya.
Mass Communications came and saved me from great frustration....I fell in love with you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you <3.....but suddenly TESL called me "Baby come back to me.I'll be everything you need"....You left me and want me back? No way pal...I hate you T_T...How could you do this to me?......I don't love you like I used to...I don't want you like I used to...Why?
When I didn't get what I want...I will look after a new one,I will hate the things that I used to love...
My mom asked me to think wisely before I choose....she wants me to take TESL...and she didn't want me to reject TESL because of my frustration...Sorry mom,I couldn't accept TESL....it drives me crazy!
TESL or Mass Communications.......? Allah please help me choose....I don't want to end up in a mental institution because of this...I'm not demented T_T